I just re-read my mission-statement for this blog and realized I have a recent dearth of sharing on this topic.
Partially, because I am less personally tormented by this question now. I am less worried that I’ll never discover the secrets of musicianship. I grew bounds in the last 3 years. Regular group performances in front of hundreds, often thousands, is the best way to learn if you have my demeanor. [For others.. those who are less concerned about analyzing their sound, their musical contributions as they merge with bandmates’.. I think we’d all be happier if they found a different way to learn.. just kidding 😉 ]. Even though this was in the capacity of playing with a band (playing synth, B3, piano) and not in a solo capacity, it has fortified my confidence in my solo abilities. Last weekend I sat down and played through some Debussy and Chopin pieces after a year or so untouched and I believe they were much more persuasive than I’ve ever played them before.
So, I’m now respected by peers, I’m not terrified of performance, and I have a runtime grip on how the music feels. What next?
- Keep innovating in this role. I still have bad days. I still have dull days. I still have days where I feel out of my league. I still have too many days where I rely on the chart. I also know that my stage presence can improve.
- Dive deep into the music that’s produced today. Become an expert, a critic. Go to shows.
- Continue to improve on the B3. I think I need to acquire a professional teacher who can give direction.
- Continue to improve on the synth. I think the internet can probably suffice for this one, but I know that my working knowledge is only adequate.
- Continue to improve on piano. I always have more to learn, even though I am qualified to teach piano myself. I struggle with deciding between devoting time on jazz vs. classical. At this time I feel I must continue learning jazz through personal study and spending money on a teacher for classical.
- Buy new gear.
- Compose. Get my hands dirty in all of this professional music software and native instruments libraries on my machine. I’m ashamed at the lack of use.
- Join some meetups for classical music performances. Get other kinds of performances under my belt.
- Start a band as a creative director. This is my most electrifying goal.